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Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Tue, 22 Jan 2008 14:27:01 GMT

Hello people.
I need money desperately.
Visit my online shopping blog and help me make money.
Spending money is goooood.

http://thebankruptgirl.blogspot.com/

Thank u.
I love u.

Sunday, December 09, 2007

Sun, 09 Dec 2007 07:25:34 GMT

I need a break.

My parents are angry because I didnt stay for Hafiz's wedding.
My mum dont let me eat cause she said I'm fat.
My girls noticed I gained weight. (from 45 to 48 to 51)
I have alot of assignments to do but I dont know where to start.
I run out of inspiration.
I'm tired.
I miss Shahril..cepat balik!!!!!

I need money.

My birthday entry is private. Only me and meeeeeeee can read. huh. -_______________-"

Lookie..my new shoe! Shahril got this for me. ILOVEUbaby.

and..........

BOO!

Friday, December 07, 2007

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 15:37:02 GMT

I'm missing my baby tonight.
The feeling's just not right.

Shahril went to KL tonight. He'll be back on sunday night OR monday morning. Oh, what am I gonna do for the weekends? okok I'll be at my cousin's wedding BUT its goddamn bored! I hate weddings. Who am I gonna talk to while staring at old people talking?

Every night I'll be on the phone with you till its my bedtime. I know you're only gonna be gone for 3 days but gosh, it feels like 3 months! So means, I have to sleep early. awwww. =( I'll hold on to my hp waiting for your message or call. I'll be excited to hear the ringing tone from my hp wishing its you.

So baby, take care and have fun.

I love you to death. =)
<3

and three cheers for three months. (060907)

Monday, November 12, 2007

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 14:26:16 GMT

my head is spinning.
my heart is aching.
i'm scared.. i'm really scared.

I got to know this afternoon that im like "5cm" away from getting expelled from school because of my poor attendance. Most of the time i missed the first lesson..thats why all this happen. Why i missed it? I overslept. Why? I couldn't sleep the night before. Yes, i deserved it.. i should be expelled. But i need one more chance. Please? Just one more chance to prove that i can come to school on time.

Mr Kelvin, my class advisor said, "We have give you multiple warnings but your attendance still doesnt improve. You have to explain each time why you didnt turn up for class. I told you, parents letter are also acceptable. All the MCs have been key in the computer so left those days without MCs. How are u going to explain yourself? You know, once the ITE kicked you out from the campus, there is no other way for you to come back and study at ITE. Unless you choose to leave ITE then you can come back and study. I will call your parents anytime this week. I'm not sure when but anytime i'm free. Then we will arrange a time next week for your parents to come down and talk to the course manager."

Where am I suppose to go if they kicked me out of school? With my O level cert which is just like a plain piece of paper. Maybe i could go and take private diploma but Kim was right. I couldnt even wake up early to be in school on time and i wanna go and take private diploma which is even harder.

But most importantly, i dont want my mum to know. I dont want my dad to know. I dont want them to say.."dah mcm abang kau. tak datang sch abeh kene retake exam terus dah tanak sch lagik. ape nak jadi?" No. Please dont compare me to abang.

God, please..i'm not asking for a miracle. I'm just asking, please help me out.
I dont know what else to say but please, I need just one more chance.

.........

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 15:41:18 GMT

30 more days to go...

and here's my list of things to do before I die.
(it's not in sequence)

1. Reverse Bungee

2. Picnic

3. Photography session - portfolio

4. Photography session - couple shots

5. Cable Car ride

6. Movie (cause I got 2 free passes. hehe.)

7. Swimming (dont ask me why)

8. ~~Escape Theme park~~

9. Learn how to ride a bicycle (fuck u. dont ask me why again)

10. Ice Skating

11. ~~Roller Coaster~~

12. Travel

13. Die

14. Married

15. Have children

.....and the list goes on.

ok dont be shock that dying comes before getting married because really..I'd rather die than get married.

=))

Friday, October 05, 2007

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 11:44:34 GMT

Do you know how it feels like to be unpretty?
Do you know how it feels like to be pressured?

I wish could tie you up in my shoes
Make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful
But what does that mean to you
Look into the mirror who's inside there
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today (yeah)

My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'

You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make up
That man can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in the position to make me feel
So damn unpretty
I'll make you feel unpretty too

Never insecure until I met you
Now I'm bein' stupid
I used to be so cute to me
Just a little bit skinny
Why do I look to all these things
To keep you happy
Maybe get rid of you
And then I'll get back to me (hey)

My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'

TLC - Unpretty

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Tue, 25 Sep 2007 17:29:42 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WIRDA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

My girl is 19 already!! So old~ ahahah. And so we had Wirda's bdae dinner at Sakae Sushi. We ordered the buffet with teppanyaki. It was delicious. We talked and talked and eat and eat and in the middle of the dinner, me and Anne gave Little Miss Wirda her pressies. Oh I'm so happy you like the necklace!! =)) Anne got for her this box of chocolates. *Wirda dear, I know you love chocs so dont gelojoh uh. hahah. ok kidding.*

Then we went off at 9. Anne and Wirda have school tomorrow so they have to leave early. They took a cab home and I met Shahril. We walked to City Hall and took a bus home. We love walking. uh huh.

So earlier in the day, I went to meet Wirda at Arab Street cause I need to change the table cloth mum bought yesterday. Then we went to her friend's shop. It's one of the boutique at Haji Lane. The place is so pretty. Rows of dresses and skinny jeans and tshirts. Oh my, I wouldnt mind spending hours in the shop. haha. I took some pictures using Wirda's cam but she hasnt upload it yet. Will post it soon.

ok done for now.

Monday, September 24, 2007

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 19:31:51 GMT

I wasted 45 cents.

Earlier in the day, I went out with mum to do some shopping for Hari Raya. I bought my baju kurung!! Its so pretty. hahah. And I actually sleep at 7 30 in the morning and then Ayu called me at 12 30. Asking me how to answer a question in her job application. Aku bangun je terus ketawe seh Ayu.. dgr ape kau tulis utk ques2 tu. kekek lah sehh. kau punye lah honest. hahahah. tapi nasib dpt jugak keje. woo hooo!!! So then I woke up, get ready and went out. By 4+ I'm already jaded. I'm tired of walking and standing and how I wish I could just fly home. heh.

Then time to break fast. My parents were eating but I was sleeping cause I'm not hungry at all. And I'm going out at 8 so I need some rest. I'm supposed to meet Faisal at 8 15 and he keep calling me cause I'm still at home.. getting ready. eheh. So I met him at Aljunied mrt station then called my boyfriend cause I'm meeting him after that.. and he happens to be at Paya lebar, which is a stop before this. So met him in the train.. drop at City Hall.. goodbye Faisal and have no idea where to go. Then he suggested we walk to Clarke Quay. So we did and I need to take a piss then checked the time..it's 9 30..or so.. and he's sending me home so we have to leave now so he wont rush to catch the last train home. And I reached home an hour later. Can you imagine..I wasted 45 cents for the train ride. I went all the way to City Hall, walk to Clarke Quay and made a U-turn home. heh.

and I'm sleepy now.

one last thing..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAISAL. YOUR OLD!! AHAHAH. HMMM. -____-

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Tue, 18 Sep 2007 17:52:44 GMT

ok fuck i'm back. i dont care about u hate taggers. u can go fuck urself.

quick updates:

i have a boyfriend and i love him alot.

i permed my hair and it looks freaking ugly.

wirda's bdae is coming up. (weeee)

i need baju raya.

ok bye.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 10:38:38 GMT

I will stop blogging if that's what you want.

HEY UNKNOWN, HEY WIRNA,

YOU'RE A FUCKING SAME PERSON.
CAN U FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE?
I DON'T BUG YOU SO DO THE SAME.
BITCH, WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM?

LIKE I SAID, IF YOU'RE FUCKING BRAVE TO WRITE THOSE SHIT ABOUT ME.. THEN BE BRAVE ENOUGH TO WRITE YOUR OWN NAME.

FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.