my head is spinning.
my heart is aching.
i'm scared.. i'm really scared.

I got to know this afternoon that im like "5cm" away from getting expelled from school because of my poor attendance. Most of the time i missed the first lesson..thats why all this happen. Why i missed it? I overslept. Why? I couldn't sleep the night before. Yes, i deserved it.. i should be expelled. But i need one more chance. Please? Just one more chance to prove that i can come to school on time.

Mr Kelvin, my class advisor said, "We have give you multiple warnings but your attendance still doesnt improve. You have to explain each time why you didnt turn up for class. I told you, parents letter are also acceptable. All the MCs have been key in the computer so left those days without MCs. How are u going to explain yourself? You know, once the ITE kicked you out from the campus, there is no other way for you to come back and study at ITE. Unless you choose to leave ITE then you can come back and study. I will call your parents anytime this week. I'm not sure when but anytime i'm free. Then we will arrange a time next week for your parents to come down and talk to the course manager."

Where am I suppose to go if they kicked me out of school? With my O level cert which is just like a plain piece of paper. Maybe i could go and take private diploma but Kim was right. I couldnt even wake up early to be in school on time and i wanna go and take private diploma which is even harder.

But most importantly, i dont want my mum to know. I dont want my dad to know. I dont want them to say.."dah mcm abang kau. tak datang sch abeh kene retake exam terus dah tanak sch lagik. ape nak jadi?" No. Please dont compare me to abang.

God, please..i'm not asking for a miracle. I'm just asking, please help me out.
I dont know what else to say but please, I need just one more chance.

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